Wow what a weekend it’s been.
What this really means:
1) I didn’t do anything substantial.
2) I didn’t step out of my house (apart from getting food with my parents which doesn’t count).
3) I’ve basically been wearing the same thing since last Friday night.
On Friday at lunch, I told my colleagues that my weekend looked empty af and that I would be bored outta my head and only got sympathetic looks 😦
Audrey was begging me to trade 1 day with her as her weekends are basically swamped with kids (ferrying them everywhere for enrichment, tuition, classes, meals). She declared her weekends as infinitely more packed than a typical work day and said she would give up everything just to have a weekend, all to herself, doing nothing.
If we traded places, I suppose I would be envious of me too. No debts, no duties, no responsibilities, no housework, NOTHING! Omg- I must be living the dream of so many overworked mothers and yet I feel sorry for myself. I really should be shot!!!
How my Saturday went down:
– woke up
– went on social media
– ate breakfast and lunch
– slept somemore
– googled sad emo stuff
– read, borrowed some online books
– had vietnamese for dinner (highlight of my day)
– slept
How my Sunday went down
– woke up
– ate breakfast and lunch
– read
– worked (you know you’ve reached #nolyfe when you’re logged on at 2pm on Sunday)
– ate
– slept
I’ve decided- I shall catch the incredibles 2 myself!
Tata. Update again tonight.
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Didn’t realise my previous post didn’t publish.
So I decided to be real spontaneous and watch a movie.
And I’m sitting in the theatre between this family of 4 with 2 young kids and a couple who can’t seem to stop making out.
Tbh, I really really really do enjoy watching movies alone. The last thing I want when I’m watching a movie is explaining things to other people! Maybe that’s why I always say I don’t like watching movies? It’s not movies per se that I don’t enjoy, but the experience of it. So there, my secret is out. I’m just really anti social LOL.
Here’s me really hoping that the movie would turn out to be good. Please, my Sunday needs to turn around.
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You know how some days you really really really miss the past and you would really really really really give everything just for one more day?
That’s exactly how I feel. These are some of the things I really miss:
1. Someone to share my meals with. I have a tendency to want to try everything but only eat a bit of each and sharing food is justifiable because the other person can get fat and rolly polly but NOT ME. i iz fat already. sobs.
2. Someone to whine to and complain to. I am omfg the most annoying partner when I’m in one of my ‘moods’. Some examples below-
- Complaining about the weather incessantly (i hate it when its humid, i hate it when its raining, i hate the heat). My idea of the perfect weather would be lots of sunshine at 20 deg – SWEATER WEATHER.
- Complaining about my appearance (everything from my double eye lids to my thighs to my finger nails) and criticise myself relentlessly. At this point, i don’t even know what it is i am looking for. Reassurance that I’m not as ugly as i think? Reassurance that even if i am ugly, i am still loved? blearghs.
- Complaining about going out, and complaining about staying at home.
- Complaining about having nothing to do, and complaining when i have something to do.
In short, there’s just no way to please me when i am moody.
3. Someone to talk to me about the most inane things. Trust me when i say that i have lots of superficial thoughts. Amongst my favourite subjects to talk about include: keeping a meticulous food diary with calories tracked and going through a list of what i had at the end of each day; whether miley cyrus is still engaged (she was my fav actress growing up – don’t judge); and thinking about whether to do this or do that and because i spend so much time deciding, i end up not doing any.
There’s a lot more that i miss. Importantly, i suppose i miss the feeling of being attached to someone. I guess I’ve always just been a more relationship kinda girl.
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By the way, incredibles 2 was pretty good. Not the most mind-blowing movie I’ve watched, but yah it was good.
Highlight definitely has got to be jack jack!!!!!!!!!!
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On a side note, i wonder what i was ever complaining about when i said i had the weekend free. I don’t suppose I’ve ever counted my blessings and how lucky it is to have the weekend free.
Things I can do:
- not wash up since i have zero social obligations
- nua endlessly
- scroll through fb and be up to date with everyone and their aunts/ their friends/ that guy you had a crush on in 5th grade
- watch yuca kinoshita and be amazed (again and again and again)
- eat all the peanut butter toast you want
- sleep. sleep on the bed, on the couch, on the floor. basically, sleep is life.
- read and pretend to have developed a new perspective on life
That aside, I’ve borrowed so many new books!!!!!!! but i really should get down to finishing the one i have on hand – the last lecture by randy pausch.
I suppose i’ll make another gratitude list when i finish the book because its almost always like a slap in the face when i read about other people’s troubles and compare it to my own.
Anyway, can i just say that i am super psyched about work? I have an early meeting tomorrow and I’m just totally looking forward to getting this project done and dusted with.
Yes, #priorities.
Goodnight world – will write more inspirationally in my next blog post cause i suppose neurotic ramblings can only be so interesting ahhhhh.